I had a house and a family when addiction and infidelity came ripping through my home like a tornado. It turned my whole life and all in it upside down... everything appeared familiar but still was so unreal, indiscernible, out of sorts in the most drastic way possible. The man I had known for almost 20 years ago had the same face but seemed to be a stranger. My self confidence, once almost unshakable seemed to be a cruel joke I was foolish enough to believe. My marriage, my relationships with others as well as myself, my history, my home, my mental stability... all of it upside down and twisted into some heart wrenching catastrophe. When once I was bold and outspoken, now I was broken. I wanted physical pain so that the terrible pain inside me would make sense. I wanted to die.
But fortunately for me, I recognized early that God had possibly designed this awful situation for me. While that may be unfathomable or unacceptable to some, I challenge you to stop asking the Lord "Why me?!" and begin asking the transforming question of faith and hope, "What would you have me learn?"
One of the things that was uprooted was my casual attitude toward my testimony and duties as a daughter of God. Suddenly I needed God in a way that I had never needed Him before. Almost immediately his tender mercies began to manifest in my life... my husband, hit rock bottom, inspired friends and associates, unaware of our trial, popped up in our lives, I had inspirations and dreams that kept me holding on. I know now, without a doubt that my Heavenly Father is keenly aware of me, loves me, and that through the Atonement and Jesus Christ, I could heal from the horrific trauma and disaster of an emotional tornado.
More of our story can be found by clicking the tabs at the top of this blog. We hope that through our experiences we can help others heal through addiction and infidelity. We also hope that our words will reach those who have not transgressed yet but will be tempted. We hope to communicate to you that your choices WILL affect others in the most dire and devastating ways and encourage you to turn to your Father in Heaven and Bishop for help.
